Sara Zarr Quote

So, Cameron, Steph continued, auditions for the school play are next week. You should come. We need more males of the species to try out.Not my thing, Cameron said.okay, so you don't want to be onstage. You could be backstage.With Jenna, Gil said helpfully. She's the stage manager-Ethan talked over Gil. But if it's not our thing, he said, it's not your thing. You don't even have to a thing if you don't want.Right, Katy said, no thing required.Cameron didn't respond, didn't even act like anyone was waiting for him to say anything. He just ate his lunch, scooping spaghetti onto a piece of bread and folding the bread over into a sort of sandwich before putting it in his mouth. I was fascinated by the most mundane little details of him-how he held his paper napkin in his left hand while he ate with his right, the space he took up when both his elbows were on the table.I was suddenly aware that I'd been staring at him, and everyone else at the table was staring at me. They were all done with their lunches. I wondered how much time had passed.Um, Katy said to me, are you all right?Steph caught my eye and smiled slowly.Oh,yeah. I concentrated on my half sandwich trying to think of something witty to say, but I was in total Jennifer Harris territory now, spacing out and forgetting how to make simple conversation.Cameron picked up his empty tray. Nice to meet you all. See you later. He lifted a finger toward me. Bye, Jennifer.We watched him leave, then Gil said, How come he calls you Jennifer?I crumpled up my lunch bag. because that used to be my name.Really? Ethan said. I didn't know that.I changed it a long time ago.He's shy, Steph said, still watching the spot where Cameron had been sitting.Katy smirked. Not with Jenna.Ethan surprised me by coming to Cameron's defense. That's because they've known each other forever. I'd be nervous, too, if I were meeting all you retards for the first time.Good point, Junior Dave said.