Henry Miller Quote

In the days to come, when it will seem as if I were entombed, when the very firmament threatens to come crashing down upon my head, I shall be forced to abandon everything except what these spirits implanted in me. I shall be crushed, debased, humiliated. I shall be frustrated in every fiber of my being. I shall even take to howling like a dog. But I shall not be utterly lost! Eventually a day is to dawn when, glancing over my own life as though it were a story or history, I can detect in it a form, a pattern, a meaning. From then on the word defeat becomes meaningless. It will be impossible ever to relapse. For on that day I become and I remain one with my creation.On another day, in a foreign land, there will appear before me a young man who, unaware of the change which has come over me, will dub me The Happy Rock. That is the moniker I shall tender when the great Cosmocrator demands- Who art thou? Yes, beyond a doubt, I shall answer The Happy Rock! And, if it be asked-Didst thou enjoy thy stay on earth?-I shall reply: My life was one long rosy crucifixion. As to the meaning of this, if it is not already clear, it shall be elucidated. If I fail then I am but a dog in the manger. Once I thought I had been wounded as no man ever had. Because I felt thus I vowed to write this book. But long before I began the book the wound had healed. Since I had sworn to fulfill my task I reopened the horrible wound.