We are all copy cats. The only original 'thing' is God, And "him", hell, most of us know as little as we know cats.
Just 'get' the 'One' in All. Then live accordingly. That's all.
Only that 'holy' book which teaches you to love all beings - animals or human things - read. Another one, idiots do, You let go, God speed.
All personal god, yours or mine, are false. Unto existence nothing but an infinite oneness walks.
All is a forever.
Most probably your belief system is screwed up. And so were your ancestors, before you. And now, maybe so are you. Overcome it, you!