“ It's hard to explain how an infatuation actually starts. It's a state so all-encompassing that it's almost impossible to remember how it felt to live inside your own head before it began. Everything t… Olivia Sudjic
“ She told me it was unlucky to share a reading with others, but the main point, the one I don't mind mentioning because it seems relevant to the story, is that she said I had a kind of evil spirit foll… Olivia Sudjic
“ I felt the nauseous shiver in my stomach—everything from rage to empathy to morning sickness—that I had grown used to and now thought of as being love. Olivia Sudjic
“ Have you ever truly, keenly felt like you don't know who you are? Do you ever do something and think, Who is at the controls? Like some mad pilot has locked you out of the cockpit? I definitely do. I… Olivia Sudjic
“ Suddenly I had to laugh. It was like realising you definitely need to projectile vomit when you thought you had it under control in some imprisoning form of public space. Olivia Sudjic
“ The messages must be stuck somewhere in the tube of light underneath the ocean that connects London and New York. Olivia Sudjic
“ Though I did not know her exact address, that she appeared to live almost within breathing distance of Robin, and that I lived with him, and that her pictures showed that she was now dating the myster… Olivia Sudjic
“ From watching Silvia, I'd learned that one of the worst things about being ill is that most people find your suffering opaque. With this sadness it was different. I felt that I needed to nurture and p… Olivia Sudjic
“ Waking in the morning, I had to remember grief all over again. It was sunny, a white winter sun, and that made me sad. Olivia Sudjic
“ The sharp, superficial pain at being spoken to unkindly had obscured the deeper pain, which had not yet turned into something hard and heavy. Olivia Sudjic
“ That night I dreamt about the roses laid at the wrong feet—the feet of the nurse. Each bit of the dream was like a hyperlink. I pressed on one, wanting answers, and it took me to another. I could neve… Olivia Sudjic
“ Or maybe it was already too late; you only get one first love. She was mine, but I had not been hers. She was only going to look for some echo of it, and if I had made the right noises, that echo migh… Olivia Sudjic
“ It never ceased to amaze me how she just had the facts always, in her head. It occured to me that if, or when, she died, a whole load of facts, a body of knowledge, might disappear without a trace. Olivia Sudjic
“ I became convinced that I was being watched.Because self was still leaking everywhere, a part of me began to think it was Mizuko rather than a stranger. I hoped that there might still be a reunion. I… Olivia Sudjic
“ We had, I felt, bared small pieces of our symmetrical souls to each other, fast, as if playing one of those breathless card games, and I had pretended to be as moved as I had been the first time I unc… Olivia Sudjic
“ Man with goatee. Man who looked like a Beatle. All the Beatles at once. Woman wearing newspaper hat. I'd grown used to how weird New Yorkers were, and I could fit them into types. Olivia Sudjic
“ Well, then, what's the plan now? You can't stay here forever.'My plan was indeed to stay there forever. Olivia Sudjic
“ Mizuko loved reading the dictionary. She liked it when there were multiple meanings for words and when opposite meanings could be contained. Olivia Sudjic
