“ Someone said once that they'd never heard of a crime they couldn't imagine committing, and I realized then that if I had a daughter and she had a rabbit and that rabbit was alone with me and I was fee… Catherine Lacey
“ But we always avoided talking about these things—difficult things—and I wondered if that meant we'd be a little uncomfortable with or disappointed by each other for the rest of our lives. Catherine Lacey
“ I found, increasingly, that I did not particularly care and I tried to fake a little kindness, a little sweetness, tried to mirror Luna back at herself, but that exhausted me after a week and I conclu… Catherine Lacey
“ I realized that even if no one ever found me, and even if I lived out the rest of my life here, always missing, forever a missing person to other people, I could never be missing to myself, I could ne… Catherine Lacey
“ You will never be missing to yourself and all you can do is delay, delay, delay and the delaying must be good enough for you and you must find a way to be fine with the delay because it is your whole… Catherine Lacey
“ Though I knew I had the potential to do this locked in me like a poisonous pet snake, I knew I didn't have the part of a person you must have to turn that potential kinetic, to be the kind of person w… Catherine Lacey
“ Every few minutes or so I would remember the look from the man who had wanted fifty cents, and I'd look at that framed memory hanging in myself and it meant I was here, back in this sick city, but in… Catherine Lacey
“ I thought I detected a bit of wonder in his voice, that he'd like to become part of a story, any story. Catherine Lacey
“ I wondered for a moment if he was trying to get me to join a cult, but I realized it was just his youth talking, not a dogma. Catherine Lacey
“ I was thinking about stabbing myself in the face—not actually considering stabbing myself in the face, but thinking that it would be a physical expression of how I felt. Catherine Lacey
“ I couldn't blame anyone for what was in me, because I am, like everyone, populated entirely by myself. Catherine Lacey
“ I had never really stopped thinking of how the smartest person I knew had, after much thought, decided that life was not worth it—that she'd be better off not living—and how was I supposed to live aft… Catherine Lacey
“ Lately, I couldn't remember those years, as if childhood was a movie I'd only seen the previews to. Catherine Lacey
“ And he'd said nothing or something that amounted to nothing, and I tongued this memory like a burn in my mouth until the bathwater cooled and shook me back into my body where my fingerprints were ruff… Catherine Lacey
“ That boy never seemed to smile and he wore long sleeves year-round, and I was not so different from him—we were both unable to get near the real life in life. Catherine Lacey
“ My body felt like tangled rubber bands and dried-out pens and sticky paper clips, like the contents of a drawer where you put the things you don't have anywhere else to put, and I knew that the mind a… Catherine Lacey
“ I hiked up a path and into the woods, thinking about what I should be thinking about and almost having a real feeling—a feeling like, this is really sad, this is a sad place to be, a sad part of my li… Catherine Lacey
“ I wasn't sure if it was safe for me to be sharing time and space with other people, who all seemed so much gentler and safer and less of a secret to themselves than I felt I was. Catherine Lacey
