Mary Roach Quote

I write all this with respect for thepossibility that rather than some kind ofcontact with the consciousness of my donor'sheart, these are merely hallucinations fromthe medications or my own projections. I knowthis is a very slippery slope….What came to me in the first contact….was thehorror of dying. The utter suddenness, shock,and surprise of it all….The feeling of beingripped off and the dread of dying before yourtime….This and two other incidents are by farthe most terrifying experiences I have everhad….What came to me on the second occasion was mydonor's experience of having his heart beingcut out of his chest and transplanted. Therewas a profound sense of violation by amysterious, omnipotent outside force….…The third episode was quite different thanthe previous two. This time the consciousnessof my donor's heart was in the presenttense….He was struggling to figure out wherehe was, even what he was….It was as if none ofyour senses worked….An extremely frighteningawareness of total dislocation….As if you arereaching with your hands to graspsomething…but every time you reach forwardyour fingers end up only clutching thin air.