Jack Kerouac Quote

Mexican LonelinessAnd I am an unhappy strangergrooking in the streets of Mexico-My friends have died on me, mylovers disappeared, my whores banned,my bed rocked and heaved byearthquake - and no holy weedto get high by candlelightand dream - only fumes of buses,dust storms, and maids peeking at methru a hole in the doorsecretly drilled to watchmasturbators fuck pillows -I am the Gargoyleof Our Ladydreaming in spacegray mist dreams --My face is pointed towards Napoleon------ I have no form ------My address book is full of RIP'sI have no value in the void,at home without honor, -My only friend is an old fagwithout a typewriterWho, if he's my friend,I'll be buggered.I have some mayonnaise left,a whole unwanted bottle of oil,peasants washing my sky light,a nut clearing his throatin the bathroom next to minea hundred times a daysharing my common ceiling -If I get drunk I get thirsty- if I walk my foot breaks down- if I smile my mask's a farce- if I cry I'm just a child -- if I remember I'm a liar- if I write the writing's done -- if I die the dying's over -- if I live the dying's just begun -- if I wait the waiting's longer- if I go the going's goneif I sleep the bliss is heavythe bliss is heavy on my lids- if I go to cheap moviesthe bedbugs get me -Expensive movies I can't afford