A perfect word for my new life. Unbecoming. I who have always been unbecoming am becoming un.
Hasn't anyone told you anger is unbecoming?
(a.) Not becoming; unsuitable; unfit; indecorous; improper.
…People are rivers, always ready to move from one state of being into another. It is not fair, to treat people as if they are finished beings. Everyone is always becoming and unbecoming.