“ But no, now I see I never meant to Ben what Ben meant to me. If there was anything I said which resonated in return, he found a better speech elsewhere. My romance went no further than his coat. Sara Baume
“ It’s time to accept that I am average, and to stop making this acceptance of my averageness into a bereavement. Sara Baume
“ My mother says: 'People who suffer from anxiety are usually those with the most vivid imaginations. Sara Baume
“ And yet, here I am. Perceiving everything that is wonderful to be proportionately difficult; everything that is possible an elaborate battle to achieve. My happy life was never enough for me. I always… Sara Baume
“ It happens so seldom; I must catch and keep this slender yearning, a rare beetle in a jam-jar trap. But mustering will is not the same as wanting. I lie in the garden and think about all the footsteps… Sara Baume
“ But I know I will do neither; nothing. I have all the time in the world, and yet, I can't be bothered. Sara Baume
“ So it's as if,' I say, 'I'm okay in my own bones, but I know that my bones aren't living up to other people's version of what a life should be, and I feel a little crushed by that, to be honest, a lit… Sara Baume
“ There really isn't much wrong with me,' I say, 'it's just that, well, I'm not like other people; I don't want the things they want. And this is not right, I mean, in other people's eyes, and I feel as… Sara Baume
“ I decided that if I didn't allow myself to fall asleep, then I wouldn't have to wake up again and despair. Sara Baume
“ My mother likes odd numbers and is suspicious of the even ones. She reads a new book every week and is bewitched by black holes in the universe. She describes herself as an optimist but she worries ab… Sara Baume
“ I see foxes often, but always they are crossing fallow fields in the distance. Gold flecks on faraway expanses of green. Magnetic to the meandering eye. Enigmatic, unreachable. Sara Baume
“ Blending into the tinctures and textures of the countryside. The tree which falls without any human hearing still falls, as the creatures who die without being found by a human still die. Sara Baume
“ I was wrong to try and impose something of my humanity on you, when being human never did me any good Sara Baume
“ You can't dance to paintings. This is something Ben said, during one of our White Cube conversations, back when I was still wrong about him. He said it even though, at the time, he was desperately try… Sara Baume
“ Now I wonder if each artwork is in fact utterly inaccessible to everybody but the person to whom it is secretly addressed? Sara Baume
“ How I adored to draw as a child, a teen; all my life before I began to try and shape a career out of it. Sara Baume
