“ My phone is on my bed, whispering in my ear like a bottle of scotch to a recovering alcoholic, while the rain continues cackling at me through my window. Katja Millay
“ Do real boys actually call girls baby? I don't have enough experience to know. I do know that if a guy ever called me baby, I'd probably laugh in his face. Or choke him. Katja Millay
“ I'm tired of being responsible for other people's misery. I can't even put up with my own. Katja Millay
“ His hands are miracles. I can watch them for hours, transforming wood into something it never dreamed of being. Katja Millay
“ I wish I could have saved you," he says finally. And this is what it always comes back to. Salvation. Him saving me. Me saving him. Impossibilities, because there is no such thing, and it's not what w… Katja Millay
“ Maybe I don't need to save her forever. Maybe I can just save her right now, in this moment, and if I can do that, maybe it will save me and maybe that can be enough. Katja Millay
“ I hate my left hand. I hate to look at it. I hate it when it stutters and trembles and reminds me that my identity is gone. But I look at it anyway; because it also reminds me that I'm going to find t… Katja Millay
“ I stayed in therapy long enough to know that nothing that happened to me was my fault. I didn't do anything to invite it or deserve it. But that just makes it worse. Maybe I don't blame myself for wha… Katja Millay
“ I'd watch her, amazed at just how much a person could accomplish fueled by tea and regret. Katja Millay
“ My jealousy is a living thing. Shifting, changing, growing. Like my rage and my mother's regret. Katja Millay
“ People who have never been through any sort of shit always assume that they know how you should react to having your life destroyed. And the people who have been through shit think you're suppose to d… Katja Millay
“ I think I’ll stay in pieces. I can shift them, rearrange, depending on the day, depending on what I need to be. I can change on a whim and be so many different girls and none of them has to be me. Katja Millay
“ I didn't belong in this world anymore. It's not that I wanted to be dead, I just felt like I should be. Katja Millay
“ It doesn't matter if you do everything right, if you dress the right way and act the right way and follow all the rules, because evil will find you anyway. Evil's resourceful that way. Katja Millay
“ What did you see when you died?" He has that tenative half smile, like he's almost embarrassed by what he's saying. "Because I'm guessing it wasn't the Sea of Tranquility."And when I look at him, I'm… Katja Millay
“ I live in a world without magic or miracles. A place where there are no clairvoyants or shapeshifters, no angels or superhuman boys to save you. A place where people die and music disintegrates and th… Katja Millay
“ And maybe I’m a liar and I do need it, because being kissed by Josh Bennett is kind of like being saved. It’s a promise and a memory of the future and a book of better stories.When he stops, I’m still… Katja Millay
“ I live in a world without magic or miracles. A place where there are no clairvoyants of shapeshifters, no angels or superhuman boys to save you. A place where people die and music disintegrates and th… Katja Millay
