“ Summer was a book of hope. That's why I loved and hated summers. Because they made me want to believe. Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ Summer was here again. Summer, summer, summer. I loved and hated summers. Summers had a logic all their own and they always brought something out in me. Summer was supposed to be about freedom and you… Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ When I walked into the house, I went in search of one of my dad's bottles. Not that they were that hard to find. He hid bottles all over the house. I knew where they all were. That was one of my hobbi… Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ Do you know what dead skin looks like when they take off a cast?That was my life, all that dead skin. It was strange to feel like the Ari I used to be. Except that wasn’t totally true. The Ari I used… Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ Did you hear me, Zach? I care about you.” “Okay,” I said. “It’s okay with me that you care about me. But can we please not talk about it? Would that be okay with you?” “Yeah, that would be okay,” he s… Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ I was ashamed of myself for being ashamed of myself. I didn't like feeling like that. Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ This was what was wrong with me. All this time I had been trying to figure out the secrets of the universe, the secrets of my own body, of my own heart. All of the answers had always been so close and… Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ You know what the worst thing about adults is? ...They're not always adults. But that's what I like about them. Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ I wonder if he’d been as beautiful as Dante. And I wondered why I thought that. Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ He tried not to laugh, but he wasn't good at controlling all the laughter that lived inside of him. Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ Water was something he loved, something he respected. He understood its beauty and its dangers. He talked about swimming as if it were a way of life. Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ I mean, okay, let's say we're all going to get better. Let's just pretend we will. Fine. Where are we going to go after we get better? What are we going to do with all of our newfound healthy behavior… Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ The thing about tears is that they can be as quiet as a cloud floating across the desert sky. Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ That was the first time I did coke.My body, it was electric. For the first time in my life I felt as if I had a real heart and a real body and I knew that there was this fire in me that could have lit… Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ I have this idea stuck in my head that you have to be born beautiful in order to dream beautiful things. God didn't write beautiful on my heart. I'm stuck with all my bad dreams. Bad dreams for bad bo… Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ I wondered what it would be like, to love a girl, to know how a girl thinks, to see the world through a girl's eyes. Maybe they knew more than boys. Maybe they understood things that boys could never… Benjamin Alire Sáenz
“ You're fighting this war in the worst way possible." "I don't know how to fight it, Dad.""You should ask for help," he said."I don't know how to do that, either. Benjamin Alire Sáenz
