I have so much health problems, but I believe I could still make it through.
Before you reach the point of forgiveness, you go through the phase where you pray... for every possible misfortune and ill luck to strike them dead while you sit and watch.
When you quieten and silence your mind and lovingly consult your heart, that direct line between your heart and mind directs you to the "God" within you. It is in that place you will find your answers...