“ I loved Emma.' The words, so flat and final, explode into the air. 'But she lied to me. I thought perhaps I could have the love without the lies. With you, I mean. Do you remember your application let… J.P. Delaney
“ The same goes for Edward Monkford. Yes, based on what you've told me, it seems Emma was the real narcissist, not him. But there's no doubting he's an extreme controller. What happens when a controller… J.P. Delaney
“ That was Emma—she'd have enjoyed knowing she had something like that, something that could blow her whole fucking life and mine apart if it came out. Her little bit of power. J.P. Delaney
“ Saul is as different from Simon Wakefield as it's possible to get, I find myself thinking. And Edward Monkford is utterly different from both of them. It seems incredible that Emma could have had rela… J.P. Delaney
“ All these men who loved Emma, I think. For all her problems, men were fixated on her. Will anyone ever feel like that about me? J.P. Delaney
“ I feel a thrill of excitement at this first tiny glimpse of self-revelation, of intimacy. J.P. Delaney
“ We're all connected now, I think as I send it off into cyberspace. Everyone and everything. J.P. Delaney
“ I will take what I can from Edward. And then I will let them fade into history, all the characters in this drama. Emma Matthews and the men who loved her, who became obsessed with her. They're not imp… J.P. Delaney
“ I know it must look odd, given that I didn't even know Emma. But it seems to me that almost no one really knew her. Everyone I speak to has a different version of what she was like. J.P. Delaney
“ Sometimes it's as if I can shrink away to nothing. Sometimes I feel as pure and perfect as a ghost. The hunger, the headaches, the dizziness—these are the only things that are real. J.P. Delaney
“ But don't you see, I say, I don't care. I don't care what you've done or how bad you are. Edward, we belong together. We both know it. Now I know your worst secrets and you know mine. Isn't that what… J.P. Delaney
“ But I know he loves me. I know he needs our games, that they answer some deep-seated hunger in him. J.P. Delaney
“ But one day, when Toby is old enough, I will take down a shoe box from a shelf where it is kept, and I will tell him again the story of his sister, Isabel Margaret Cavendish, the girl who came before. J.P. Delaney
“ It's the sketch Edward did of me before he went away, the one he said was fine but didn't want to keep. It's as if he's drawn me not once but twice. In the main drawing I have my head turned to the ri… J.P. Delaney
“ And when I realized you had secrets too, I was glad. I thought we could be honest with each other. That we could finally rid ourselves of all the clutter from our past. Not our possessions, but the st… J.P. Delaney
“ Love flows from me into him, and his blue eyes crinkle, huge and happy. Such a smiley baby. The midwife says it can't be a real smile, not yet, just some passing gas or a random quiver of his lip, but… J.P. Delaney
