The false hope I filled myself with is fleeing and I'm beginning to feel scared again.
You know what's the worst? Having realistic, ordinary expectations taken out of your reach by seemingly unrealistic, extraordinary circumstances.
Being determined delinquents, Peyton and I jumped the barricades and wandered around the dilapidated interior.
My newfound motivation had me feeling confident in my ability and I headed to Mackay with a plan.
Where's your sense of misadventure?
But now I think he was trying to teach me to never feel entitled because life can be a cruel bitch at times.
The acceptance of just one person is enough to silence the rejection of thousands.
Everyday something unexpected happened. Everyday was exciting. Everyday was a misadventure.
At least I can say I once worked a day on a tea plantation in Far North Queensland.
So much to do but so many incompetent workers," I said, playing to his take-no-shit-get-in-and-fucking-do-it attitude.
It's called the kindness of a fellow human being. You should try it sometime, ya fuck.
Now comes the hard part. Peyton, Peyton, Peyton. Just say Peyton.
She'd been fed anti-consumerist bullshit by her parents but didn't understand simple economics.
It seemed, at that point, my greed and cunningness were being rewarded.
This is your chance. Are you going to cower and make excuses or are you going to do what you really want to do?
If you're not happy with yourself, how can you even begin to figure out if another person makes you happy, annoyed, angry, sad and so on.
Someone who lives vicariously will never be truly happy because they're not happy with themselves.
A fight needs at least two fighters. Sometimes you can win straight away by not fighting.
It wasn't a glorious or grand act of misadventure but it was a start. It wasn't what I should have done but it was what I truly wanted to do.
I must have appeared like a real bad boy in Christy's eyes. Well, at least a bad boy by home and away standards.
