“ I tucked the Camel coupon from his cigarette pack into my pocket. A souvenir of the moment where he said maybe. I would hold on to his maybe for as long as it would take, even forever. Kimberly Novosel
“ On day one of the drive, I saw my first dome sky. The world was so flat that I could see the level horizon all around me and the sky looked like a dome. Skies like that will give you perspective when… Kimberly Novosel
“ He told me that when we first met, he had said to a friend about me: “If I get that girl’s number I will never ask another girl for her number again. Kimberly Novosel
“ It was strange walking through the empty apartment. My battered purple room was gone, Brittany’s bruised blue was gone. Two coats covered everything. It was like none of it had ever happened. Kimberly Novosel
“ I wrote. I wrote all the things I couldn’t say to him. I wrote about how much I believed in us. I wrote about how much I trusted God. I wrote that I was praying for him. I wrote down all the jokes I c… Kimberly Novosel
“ I was girly and friendly and my family life was happy but many days I felt like I was on the inside what Chase was on the outside. I always believed I was a happy person with a sad soul. I felt like I… Kimberly Novosel
“ I thought about how the past can become so small. An entire day, 24 separate, heavy hours, becomes the size of a tiny brown leaf falling from a tree. Before you know it, a whole year is just a pile of… Kimberly Novosel
“ That’s how it felt – that the loss of him had a life of its own. I lived with it as I could have lived with him. Some nights it was quiet and sometimes it pounded on my door. Kimberly Novosel
“ I used to cover my windows in heavy curtains, never drawn. Now I danced in the sunlight on my hardwood floors. Kimberly Novosel
“ I remembered learning from my favorite professor at Belmont to “surround yourself with people who are better than you,” and I was now living that mantra. Kimberly Novosel
“ Each guy stamped the passport of my heart. “You’re worthy.” Stamp. “You’re enough.” “You have not failed completely.” Stamp, stamp. Kimberly Novosel
“ The voice sang on, “I am ready, I am ready, I am fine. I am fine, I am fine, I am fine.” I played it again. I was not fine. Kimberly Novosel
“ I didn’t answer. We were not buddies. We could not chat about the proximity of our offices, or football, or forgiveness. Kimberly Novosel
“ Unfortunately, he still hadn’t asked for my number, or a date, or my hand in marriage, and my drink was getting low. Kimberly Novosel
“ We kissed each other until we were too tired to keep going. I could still feel him holding back. It was my penance for what I had done to him. All I could do was hope the walls would fall and that I c… Kimberly Novosel
