I avoided situations that might otherwise trip or jangle my hypersensitive wiring, and I learned to pretend I was paying attention or following a logical point when my mind qas off chasing rabbits in...
His wife maintains she can tell whether or not Jim is in the house simply by the amount of energy she feels in the air. But
He was low-key, I was intense; things that cut me to the quick he was able to sail by with scarcely a notice; he was slow to anger, I quick; the world registered gently upon him, sometimes not at all,...
For several weeks, I drank vodka in my orange juice before setting off for school in the mornings, and I thought obsessively about killing myself.
لقد استغرق الأمر مني زمنًا طويلًا لكي أدرك أن السنوات و العلاقات الإنسانية التي فقدتها لا يمكن استرجاعها، و أن الأذى الذي وقع على نفسي و على الآخرين لا يمكن دائمًا إصلاحه ، و أن التحرر من سيطرة الدواء...
كنتُ أستيقظ في الصباح مع شعور عميق بالفزع لما سأمر به من معاناة في يومٍ جديد .
كل شيء كان في السابق متوهجًا أصبح الآن منطفئًا
عندما بدأت أشعر بنفسي مجددًا لم أكن على استعداد أن أخاطر بخسارة المزيد من الوقت مثلما سبق. الحياة لم تعد تستحق أن أخسرها .
بدأت أستمتع بالموسيقى و الرسومات مجددًا ، بدأت أضحك مجددًا ، بدأت أكتب الشعر مجددًا. ليالٍ طويلةٌ و صباحات مبكرة من العواطف الرائعة جعلتني أعيد الاعتقاد، أو أتذكر أهمية الإحساس بأن أعيش لأحب و أن أحب...
My curiosity and temperament had taken me to places I was not really able to handle emotionally,
Yet however genuinely dreadful these moods and memories have been, they have always been offset by the elation and vitality of others; and whenever a mild and gentlish wave of brilliant and bubbling m...
We all build internal sea walls to keep at bay the sadnesses of life and the often overwhelming forces within our minds. In whatever way we do this - through love, work, family, faith, friends, denial...
Two aspects of thinking in particular are pronounced in both creative and hypomanic thought: fluency, rapidity, and flexibility of thought on the one hand, and the ability to combine ideas or categori...
This was not why I had gotten a Ph.D., and I was beginning to understand Bob Dylans lines Twenty years of schoolin’ and they put you on the day shift. Only it was twenty-three years, and I was still p...
There is, in Peanuts, an underlying and profound sadness which reflects not only Schulz's own struggles with depression but his sensitivity to the quiet terrors of human loneliness. The most terrifyin...
The fates and character of the rhyming tribe often employ my thoughts when I am disposed to be melancholy. There is not, among all the martyrologies that ever were penned, so rueful a narrative as the...
The awareness of the damage done by severe mental illness—to the individual himself and to others—and fears that it may return again play a decisive role in many suicides
Slowly the darkness began to weave its way into my mind, and before long I was hopelessly out of control. I could not follow the path of my own thoughts. Sentences flew around in my head and fragmente...
Reading, which had been at the heart of my intellectual and emotional existence,
People say, when I complain of being less lively, less energetic, less high-spirited, Well, now you’re just like the rest of us, meaning, among other things, to be reassuring. But I compare myself wit...